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yes yes here i am a bijillon years later writing in my lj! :-) lol well u no what i noticed i noticedhow manipulated i was when i was goign out w./ marc....when we first stratred goign out me and him were really good and he was sweet and nice and then when i started to get attached or w/e the words are he turned into a douch and used my feelingagainst me......well atleast that is how i see it now......lol yea so ummm i have reliazed that i am always sick!!!! what thee fuck.....woot woot jr formal on friday i am sooo excited and i am soo excited to go w/ jesse and to be w/ jesse all night long he is goign to look soooooooo god:-D yay me soo excited idk why thoughn i never though i would be excited for this but i am so so so so so excited
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Hey yea soo long time no wroten but there has been soo much lol like usual that is like my whole life lol so much happenes all the time! wlee i need a new job cause i hate mine now and what not and yea idk i have like had so so so sso much fun w/ laura and jesse l8ly what great ppl they are everyone should meet them there so so so so so so so so so much fun! lol laura sowed my pants yay laura they look amazing! lol ilove u! and yea jesse has been really reall sweet like usual i lolve that kid:-D he makes me happier then ne1 else yay yea so umm x mas is comming up soon on the 25th but yea imma jew so uh hu
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well im to lazy to type peace lol
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well soo soo soo much has happened one thing after another after another there has been so so so much bad and one ray of sun shine shining through the dark rain clouds and i think u all know who that is *jesse* well the only good was on the friday b4 laura's b day me laura and jesse gano and other ppl all hung out and played volleyablla dn then me and laura got the brilliant idea to pitch a tent and sleep there he he he then jesse and gano were gonna come l8er and sleep w/ us and what not and it turned otu gano couldn't but jesse did and it was amazing fallin asleep w/ him and wakin up w. him the next morning that was liek the best feeling in the world let me tell ya..... now the whole bad shit that previouse week i was suposed to spen time w/ my rents but 1st i went otu to lunch w/ jesse and laura and like we came bak @ liike 3 and i called my mom and told her i was comming bak and she gt really pissed and was like don't bother and we fought so i didn't come hoe and then wehn i finally did i got in soo much trouble and what not and i left the house and i was grounded for a week and then today me laura were having so so so so much fun and like gano stopped over and i let him in and what not and my mom and dad came home early and say him there and now once again i fucked up and im in deep shit w/e im a fuck up at life go me!
w/e im out and depreesed
"Im a loser baby so why dun u kill me"
panda
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[13 Nov 2004|12:17am] |
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wow today was like the day from hell like there is not one thing fromlike the start of skool till like i went to baby sitten just sucked sooooo badly and actaully right now im feeling good.....i got my love on the fone w. me cheeren me up like a mother'fer and i realized more then i have today that i have an amazing chika friend who is kick ass and cheered me up soo much too ilu rachel akalaura! lol u guyz are awsome i love u to soo much....jesse ur amazin also ur liek the only one who how really stuck w/ me since the "begining" i love ya:-) mwa ur so amazin!
I love u jesse thanx for everything u have done for me ur amazin!!!! <3 10/10
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[11 Nov 2004|10:58pm] |
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wow let me tell u today was liek amazing he he he Jesse came over and wat not and like honestly it was soo awsome to hear that i would soo much rather be w/ u then drink *(no offence)* and that is liek the firswt time i have heard it soo convinsingly and like meaningful liek he kinda beged me and wat not and liek id him and *rachel were suposed to drink and i waly inter fear w/ plans b/c my mom sucks i getting yelled at write more l8er maybe lol pavce
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[10 Nov 2004|03:02pm] |
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omg my mom is liek flippin out for liek no reason i ddun understand her god i didn't do shit.......liek for realy thougha dn liek she freaked ahhhh! idk shitty day today i have dance l8er im excited
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yo omg i can't rally write right now but i woudl just liek to say the das i spend w/ u get better and better i seem to find more and more in u every day
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What happened?
Wake up in the morning,
clock says half past one
I have no sunglasses
As I step into the sun
There's no recollection
of the evil things I've done
My head feels like I musta' had some fun
What happened?
Last thing I remember
I was chillin at a party
Pinching girlie's asses
I was drinking recklessly
I know I did something
Lord what could it be
Woke up in the morning
And all my friends say me
What happened?
What I'm I doing here
Who is this girl in my bed
What is this shit on my face
My God, what is that awful smell
That right there was pretty much my night idlk what the fuck happened but it fucken sucked/ruled....lol yea so ummm im not drinking like i did the other day wooah my god let me tell ya! i litterally puked form one end of poptom to the other it was crazy! like no tomorrow and u no what if i didn't have jesse and LAURA i would be liek dea right now prob in my own puke guyz i love you ssooooo much and the funny thing is i have like neva puked b4 in my life and like what not and idk i guess i can't handle my alki like i used to be able to seeing that i had nothing to eat but a muffin and like i haven't drank in soo long! but w/e it was kinda worth it ahahaha!!!
Me: Guyz i can't even see straight
Laura: I can it's that way!!!!
Laura: come on my mkom is here sober time ::claps in my face:: Come on jamie act sober!
omg what a ngiht it was and then yea lol i still am smelling puke like how many HOURS later after a shower and brushing my teeth lololol oh well i think i need to shower agian and try and try to rememebr what happened b/c i dun remmebr shit!
_panda_ a very drunkin one ( i still smell alki!!!!!)
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today was liek the worst day ever ahhhh everythign went wrong i liek forgot abiyut 3 quizz's today my mom is mad at me why idk but yea like im apperentyl grounded and what nto and like all this other shit and liek idk im cold but idk so yea im done thereis so much more but i can't wrote nemore no mood tooo peace
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[18 Oct 2004|10:35pm] |
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ok well yea honestly i feel amazin in a way right now liek i think i am starten to get shit on track in my life and im stayen totally clean and smart botu shit too lol likme im honestly a lil happier w/ myself and like i have good grades too
adn like i found a great friend and companion and liek idk i looked at life a lil and i thinki i no what i want in life a lil and u no what i love u for that.....u no who u r
and u no what i loive the jv girls vb they have all taught me a lot evryone oif them!Q
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[06 Sep 2004|10:41pm] |
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well today basicly was the day to fuck everythign up andi am goign throuhgh a kinda hard time and ahh i ahte it u have no idea and skool starts tomorrow
and ahhhhh
im out fuck all this shit
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[05 Sep 2004|10:51pm] |
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well i don't really know what to say i have a seriouse issue on my hands and what not an dliek my mom kinbda found a condom form like me and marc today and liek i am kind abuggen out and i don't know what to do and i know liek ahhh
idon't know what to do or say just somebody give me advisse but ia m alouyd to stioll see him and what not but it is really akkward...ahh im soo out of it help me please
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[19 Aug 2004|10:37pm] |
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wooah well today was a good and bad daty i guess well i woke up and called marc to see if there was like neway to chill and what not and like by the looks of it i wasn't gonna see him:'( and yea but i had woke up at like 12:40 that is the l8test all summa woot woot yea me! lol neway i got up and felt ehh but w/e and liek marc ended up commin over and what not and like we chilled yay.....and then i went to work and i felt liek shit sooo i ended up leaveing early and what not and like that kinda sucked b/c i only got in like 2 hours ARGH! but yea and the other day on like tuse i didn't feel good either and like i was cleaning out the pool and what not and like i reached in to get a noodle and i ended up falling in like my bra underwear and like sweatshirt t-shirt and shorts w/ like all exstra clothes but liek underwear so i threw my under wear in the sawuna and what not and like walked around in like a towle w/ nothgin under it ahahahaha it was funny...but yea i was pissed b/c i fried my cell AHHHHHH im out peave out
panda!
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well yea tryen doesen;t do shit idk if i made the jv volleyball team at all and i am sooo uspet this is liek my life and everything and to tell u the truth im brushed and both of the coaches crushed my spirits completly....yea i really dun feel liek writing actually dso peace
panda
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[18 Aug 2004|10:40pm] |
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wow finally an update in this thing so yea i dun rememebr what the lat entrie sed but since me and marc broke up we ended upgetting bak together and things with him are now different then they were we have been getting a long really well and what not and that is always a good thing but yea siunce then i went to vb camp and what not and like i was thought to have broke my wrist but once agian the doctors were wrong and there was no break at all lol so i am only out for liek 2 weeeks woot woot hell week starts monday and i have a doctose appt on monday so everyone wish me luck cause i wanna play volleyball.......VolleyBall here i come
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wow finally an update in this thing so yea i dun rememebr what the lat entrie sed but since me and marc broke up we ended upgetting bak together and things with him are now different then they were we have been getting a long really well and what not and that is always a good thing but yea siunce then i went to vb camp and what not and like i was thought to have broke my wrist but once agian the doctors were wrong and there was no break at all lol so i am only out for liek 2 weeeks woot woot hell week starts monday and i have a doctose appt on monday so everyone wish me luck cause i wanna play volleyball.......VolleyBall here i come
panda
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ok well let me see this week was ummm well yea i mean few days....lol first me and marc are back as it was sed b4 and liek idk it was really cute he gave me his dog tag and liek in a way thatr means a lot b/c it is liek his prized possetion and idk he would neva let neone touch it u know......but yea on with the other stuff well on saturday no1 was home at sam's so i went over w/. some othger ppl and what not and like we drank and we thought it would be fun to get 5 frog drunk and we did so and welll yea they didn't live too long after that i think they had alki posinin IM A FROGGIE killer and then i got ciggzs and liek my mom and dad woudl kill me if they knew i had an occational one and like idk whgy but i left the butts in my pocket and my mom washed them but i swore ther weren't mine and all and like yea that is all cool and then like i wore marc's boxers to work and my mom was liek where did u get these!?!? and no joke i stole them from marc one day when my thong was to far up my ass and she was like AHHHHHHHHHHHh lolol ehhh what are u goign to do idk? lol io am goign to volleyball camp wed......we are leaveing @ 6a phew no sleep ther lol and i have soo much shit to do oh no!!!!! ahh neway yea so i am pretty much sdone writting here peace out ya'll
panda ( a happy one)
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well things all turned around the other day i was thinking alot bout me and marc and the lil things and how i felt when i tlaked to him while we were broken up and i relized that there was no1 in this world like him for real liek the feeling i get when i tlak top him or kiss him and the securty i get from him basicly i love him and nothign will eva change that and that is that i will neva give him up
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well i havent updated in a while and like well i am not goign out w/ marc nemore and like it hurts really bad liek i new it would but i needed a break for a lil bit and like what not so i took my space needed but the only thing is i think i lost him for good and that was the only thing that i didn't want to happen i didn';t want him gone 4eva and he is like i wanted hom as my best frined b/c i strill do love him u know and if i can't love him i wanna luv him but now i dun have ne contact w/ him what so ever and that is how he wants it and what not and that is what i am goign to gdo for him to make things easyer for him and i guess in a way make him happier....im sooo confused somebody help
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